realizing more and more that i don’t have to have it all figured out, and that’s okay.
i seem to have always had this idea in my head of who i should be at this very moment, of what i should be doing. when i don’t measure up to this level i’ve set for myself, i feel like i’m not doing everything god had called me to. guess what, though—that’s so not true!! i have found so much freedom in realizing that my insane expectations for myself don’t define my worth.
despite my perfectionism and wanting everything to always fall into place perfectly, all that really matters is that i’m striving to live and love like christ... not that i haven’t gotten my grad school applications in yet & that i don’t know what life after graduation will look like for me. 🤷🏼♀️ whatever it is will happen in god’s timing, and not in mine of what i think my ideal life should look like at this very moment. we weren’t made to have it all figured out, and that’s okay.
it’s okay not to know where you’ll be in the next ten years, the next year, or even the next day. everything will happen in it’s time, and honestly, that’s a huge relief once you think about it.
you don’t need to have it all figured out—just breathe and live in the now, and take in life at this very moment. embrace the season you’re in, both the hurt and the joy, and know that it will change when it’s time. and as hard as it is to let go and believe that, sometimes that’s all you can really do. let go and trust him.